Cradled by Psilocybin & Ancient Plant Allies
In late July, I found myself cradled by psilocybin for the first time in over five years—a long-awaited reunion with this ancient ally, perfectly aligned with the cosmos.
The mushrooms had been gently whispering for over a year, inviting me to return to their world—a courtship that asked for patience and preparation until the time was right. And when she finally called, I knew it was time to answer.
Five years of sobriety had passed, not by force, but guided by spirit—an inner knowing that this chapter of my life would be altered only by the plants I chose for my monthly or weekly dietas. A practice I’ve tended to for over a decade, learning the subtle language of each herb, flower, and root.
Sobriety taught me immeasurable lessons. It gave me the space to integrate my plant medicine journeys, my travels, and even the significant shifts in the world we’ve all witnessed during these past few years. It has been humbling, to say the least, to stand grounded and unaltered while the world around us transforms in ways we couldn’t have imagined.
From my years of sobriety and deep reflection, I was inspired to create the Celestial Petal Society and Gnosis, our group for psychedelic integration. I wanted to share my psychedelic herbalism method—how plants can walk with us, even through our most altered states.
In one of our recent society circles, I spoke of Sunflower medicine—how it beckoned me to shine in my fullness. I didn’t choose the traditional golden blossom, though. I was drawn to a deep chocolate-cherry sunflower, and what bloomed within me were the richest parts of my shadow—the facets of myself that I’ve hidden yet are vital to my power—the parts that society would instead obscure but that are the very key to unlocking our brilliance.
The society’s members unanimously felt similarly, basking in the warmth of sun-drunk space, yearning to step even further into our authentic selves. The sunflower reminds us that shining in our truth requires no strain. It simply follows the sun, anchored in its moment, asking no permission. What a divine reflection of ease and grace.
One member shared that what they love most about our psychedelic herbalism sessions is that I go as deep into the plant world as they do. I never ask them to venture where I haven’t already walked—or wouldn’t dare to go myself.
And that’s the truth.
For over a decade, I’ve refined this method, which holds space for those ready to walk their unique plant path. This path supports transformation not just in the moment of a psychedelic experience but in the days, weeks, and months afterward, where the real work of integration begins.
As the eclipses of late pulled us through the liminal spaces of shadow and light, I was in awe of the method I adore. It asks us to devote ourselves to living the life we dream of. It’s not always the easiest path but a path of truth.
Through my recent journey, I saw again the arc of the psychedelic process:
- The deep release of sorrow or heaviness during the psychedelic experience.
- The bliss of finding the door to my dream life cracked open, inviting me to step through
But here’s where it gets different than most people’s experience: the integration
- I don’t rush back to the ordinary—I integrate with the support of herbs. Schisandra Berries and Peony Flower Essence were my first allies, followed by rhodiola root and Sunflower Essence. Each one provided a layer of support as I continued to integrate.
- I stayed true to my practice, observing life’s shifting nature without attachment, grounded in non-duality.
- I watched as people naturally drifted from my life, no longer resonating with my new frequency.
- I continued with my herbal remedies because that’s when the real test begins—living the lessons I’ve learned.
What I’ve come to realize is this: integration is not any less transformative than the psychedelic experience itself. But with the solid ground of herbs holding me, it comes with more ease and more grace. It’s in these moments I see how psychedelic herbalism allows me to remain steady in my truth, avoiding the pitfalls of old patterns.
Psychedelics aren’t the cure-all. But combined with the support of herbs, they offer a way to embody the changes we seek.
Does this resonate with you? Are you on the path of integration?
If you’re ready to walk this journey with me, I invite you to join the Celestial Petal Society or explore deeper integrative work through my psychedelic herbalism method. This month, I have four spots open for one-on-one work. Let’s begin with a 30-minute call to see if we’re aligned.
Together, we can navigate this transformative journey with the support of the plants and the wisdom within.